Joyce Meyer wrote a book on being happy on your way to where you are supposed to be. It is pretty neat, how she discusses how difficult it is for us to be able to really lean on the Lord and rely on him the way we were meant to. Humans, by nature, have to plan it all out in our lives. This is hard when you think of the unanswered questions and unfulfilled desires in our lives. We all have them.
I always heard that the desires we have in our hearts were given to us by the Lord, so he is sure to follow through. I believe that, still to this day, though I also know he doesn't always fulfill them the way we think he will. For example, my husband desired a son without the genetic arthritis that comes down through his fathers side of the family. He prayed this most of his life, that God would give him a son arthritis free. What did God do? He gave him a son arthritis free alright. . . we adopted him. He looks like my husband, acts like my husband, but his little body doesn't carry the painful disease and for this we are so very grateful. However, what a creative way for the Lord to answer that prayer and hearts desire. We all know God could have chosen to have us give birth to a biological son and just take away the disease, but God has the master plan. HE knows what is best for all involved. :) I have other examples, but we get the point.
My favorite verse in my life, the one I have lived on happens to be Jeremiah 29:11 - "for I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm. To give you a hope and a future." I hung onto these words throughout my dating years, feeling they were the most difficult years I would ever face. I struggled so much with wondering if I was to get married and to whom and would I like the guy that God had picked out for me. I know it didn't make one bit of sense, but I worried that I wouldn't be happy with who He had planned for me. It bothered me to no end that I had no answers and every time I tried to work things out, they didn't. I had to have a plan in place and every time I thought I had it all figured out. . . .something would happen and back to square one. If only I had just enjoyed those years, waiting patiently and anxiously for what God had in store for me. He not only had the most amazing man with great looks, and an awesome sense of humor, but he chose the PERFECT mate for me. I couldn't have chosen any better if I had done it all on my own. In fact, I am sure I would have messed my life up royally if I had not relied on the Lord.
Now I am happily married to the Love of my Life and I can see where and how God was working in my life. So a few years later in my life, I am facing not being able to get pregnant. I was so upset and struggling with what God was doing. I knew God was in control and so I held onto that verse again, claiming it as my own along with 'Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.' - Psalm 37:4
This worked with my hubby so I knew God also had placed the desire to have a child and that too would be fulfilled in his timing. The waiting patiently was never easy for me, but I knew I had to do it, if I wanted my life to be what it was intended to be. I had some peace in knowing someone larger than me, My Saviour and Creator, were in control. I had to remind myself of that over time.
I look at my life now and realize how many of the desires I have had since I was small, have been not only answered, but even better. They have been miracles in my life. I now have a hubby and two beautiful children and I am loving my life. I am so grateful for what I have been blessed with. I don't think by any means, that I am perfect and never again will be impatient about life. In fact, at this moment I am struggling with some deep desires and wondering what to do with them. I wrote this blog to help remind myself of how awesome our God is and that leaving it up to him leaves me free to go about my life and not worry. He has my best interest in mind. I love that!!! I hope this encouraged someone else out there, and I am going to go pray and give over my worries to the Lord.
I am ready to have Joy while sitting in the waiting room.
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